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happy birthday to myself..hehehehee..not celebrating it but i had a family dinner last at my place.chit4 was there as well..i told my friend r1en bout my birthday wish earlier.i just want to meet eZz.. dun know why suddenly feel i just want to talk with him and spend time together.*sigh*..to all my friend..thank you so much for everything..to my family..i love you so much..to my chit4..humm..thank you and i love you too.. i wake up this morning and still received all birthday wishes from my friend..and suddenly i got a msg from eZz..??? :O he wished me as well ..God..did he feel the same thing too..? earlier this morning i thought he 'trashed' me ages ago.but now..it shows he still checkin my url..and he dare to msg me..?? he said to me before that he will try to forget me..but..does he 'failed' ? eZz ..??

10 thn yang lalu
-i'm still in college study law.my opah still supporting me.i start taking drugs..heheheh..i still remember i celebrated my birthday in my hostel..they throwing eggs and other stuff when i'm taking shower.i got crushed on someone name rM..(his married now) i start building up my personality..i just want to be different.i always skiped my math class..hahaha.. start buying ciggerette..my favourite songs.. CnCMusicFactory..demm ON's!


5thn yang lalu
-i just breakoff with my bf name marKaNdrew.i went out with this guy name f4Yrus.i start having regular 'bedtimeStoRies' with my love.he stayed over my places on weekend..send my application to further my study..having my birthday dinner with f4Yrus in hrc4fekL..my parents dislike him but my aunty care for him.my opah left me with my aunty now.got offer from petron4s but i failed the interbiu..buduhh..then got offer from 33u..yeahh!!


1thn yang lalu
-celebrating my birthday with my cousin and friends.chit4 in rome..holiday..that nite meeting up this guy online..anak iks in london..padan muka chit4.realised i should get more and more anak ikan.chit4 jer mana cukup..


kelmarin/semalam
-working..then having dinner with my family+chit4..wishing i get a job from the agency..*sigh*now i preffer to spend more time at home.and yesterday i wish could have eZz.



5 snek kegemaran
-kerepek pisang
-twistyTomato
-sunflower seeds
-white choc
-chesd4le


5 buah lagu yang aku hafal senikata
-negaraku
-stbernadette2Convent songs..seriously..
-isab3ll4 ..rock kapak sial!!
-lagu dewa..esp pupuS
-tentangSEseorang


5 perkara yang aku akan buat dg duit 100jutaMYR
-pay all my debts..hehehehheee
-go holiday to europe and perform haj..with my family and love one
-50% from it bank it to fix deposit.
-buy everything i want
-do some charity work la..off course!!


5 tabiat buruk
-drugs..??
-never statisfied with what i have
-mood swing sometimes
-selfish..??
-i loike anak ikans..hehehheee

BBL..

last night..after finish my work,meet up with my girlfriend,jib4n and d0nut @mcD dsara.d0nut just came back from 'pong' place in southern thai.mean while jib4n been telling how 'the boyfriend' trying to control her life.yeah..all of us notice about that.jib4n that i know 4yrs ago were totally different from today..at first i thought that she ready to settle down with 'the boyfriend' so i respect with the decision.after a long chat and keluh kesah session with her last night..now i notice how she missed her life before they get together.*sigh*..you still roxx gal!!
the timb4ktu clan joining the cik kiah keluh kesah session..tho they are BBL but they still a girl and they give jib4n a good advise for her to think bout her relationship with 'the boyfriend'..BBL cool..after jib4n and d0nut left for their weekly routine aerobic,me and the timb4ktu continued our keluh kesah session.
the timb4ktu decision quite shocking my nerve..

-actually they want to get married have their own kids.they wish God can helped them and maybe they can be a good mother and wife.

-they dont want to be alone and stay @rumah sri kenang4n when they old.

i always pray to God to give them a chance to be a normal women and have and happy life.people who never know them always thought they just a piece of 'masyarakat rosak akhlak'..i'm glad and happy to be their best buddie.i dont care to eat and lepaks with them althought i'm straight.i know some people will have this feeling that i maybe 'curly fries' like my friend.but i'm not.they also human and they need love for us..so people out there who always have this 'kampung thinking'..you are loser and coward.
for me..i want to get married with the guy that i love and spend my whole life with him.i want to be a mother at least 2 lovely kids.but is there any guys out there can accept me..?hummm..i'm stubborn person..and i know what i want..but let me make it clear here..my dream guy would be someone;

-have a good sense of style

-pleasant looking with charming personality

-open minded not too 'melayu'..option japanese..hehehe

-nice hair style

-funny and know how too respect me and my family

-love shopping like me.. :D

I'm Back..

yeahh..after 12months i start my blogging life again.to my friend j4a .."aku dah tak lemau.."hahahahaa..tho i'm quite busy lately,suddenly feel like writing something here..cronology of my life..

-i'm working like 'babi' and now i don't enjoy it coz i want to have weekend day off like others

-supposed i go for an interview with the agency..but still waiting..*sigh*

-no ' ank iks ' for 1 month..and now i realise that i missed him..(ooppss..just wish i have a chance to explain everything)

-i've kissed my another 'ank iks' @leice$ter$quare ..hehehee..

-i've tried the magicmu$hrooW in amsterdam..i'm 'lost' hahahhaaa

-stuck with new year eve party plan..few options..but sounds not really good..*busan*
hopefully next year i can celebrate new year and my birthday in L* or R*

-i hate faggot..although they always around me..they are sick!!!f'cking sick.!!! i've read this blog from a fames boarding school in my place make me re-think about guys.somehow it links to my ex's..f*ckk!!

-one of my ex's from secondary school RM is married..his putting on weight now but still look gorgeous..;)

-my drug life getting worst sometimes..but cutting it down soon..hopefully ..humm..lately sober for 5 days..?

-my best friend is single and he doesn't tell me anything bout his love life..?why..?

-chit4 hurts me last 2days..he said "..you tak malu ker sleep with someone that 10yrs younger than you..you jgn buat lagi mcm tu..coz sungguh memalukan dan tak bermoral..?"wtf!!!!!!!.

-..but he treat me like a princess..and i care for him so much..and i know he loves me so much too..conpius kan..

-i love my parents very much althought they dont proud to have a daughter like me..