i'm back..ehheheee..after few days of traumataized when i found out that my blog can be access from any search engine.freakk outttt!! humm..this blog i dedicated to my late and beloved aunty Nyah...here are some of my post for my aunty from my previous blog...
haa..finally today im creating my own blog.theres a lot of reasons why i create this blog.first i feel too loonely after nyah been admitted to ICU.God!i just dun understand why sometimes U so cruel to me..nyah is the person that i love most in my whole life.althought sometimes she used too screamed me,punished me and bla bla blaa..all she wants to see me to be succesful person.she is the only person who understand chito.even my parents doesnt know who i am,how sincere i am.they just point their fingers to me by saying im the "evil" in the family.only nyah knows why i turn to be "evil" and she never say that to me.but know shes dying and waiting for the time to come..and leave me alone in this world!:(( althought i still have my parents,family and friends but they are not same like her at all.ppl always think im the happiest person on earth coz i luv too party,shoping and etc.yeahh..coz i have nyah with me.every single thing that i did, i will tell her even i went to rave party,clubing,went out wif guyz.all my pain and happinest i share with nyah.but now..where can i go to cry when i need a shoulder to cry on???????tell me!!!my mama....hahahahaha..she never never understand me!frenss...maybe but certain things u cant tell ur frens,rite.eg i like tuuut....but none of my frens knows that.only nyah knows.when i like a guy,i will but myself distance becoz i dun want to be hurt.i cried to nyah that morning why must i like this guyz...nyah said just be yourself..n believe that one day u will get him or someone like him..but nyah dun like him coz she knows his attitude..but i feel so free after i told her.at least shes there for me...now..i just wanting for the time for her to leave forever..:((all my dreams with her are gone..no more crusin wif her, buying McD during Ramadhan(she knows im not fasting..heheh..she said i will be in hell)chit chat about my plan to go ibiza,buying her chocolate,buying her "jongkong emas" when i have enuff money..nyahh.. i miss you so much...nyahhh....please dont leave me alone..you told me i that we are not going to leave each other...nyahhhh!!!!!!!..:((:((:((
haa..finally today im creating my own blog.theres a lot of reasons why i create this blog.first i feel too loonely after nyah been admitted to ICU.God!i just dun understand why sometimes U so cruel to me..nyah is the person that i love most in my whole life.althought sometimes she used too screamed me,punished me and bla bla blaa..all she wants to see me to be succesful person.she is the only person who understand chito.even my parents doesnt know who i am,how sincere i am.they just point their fingers to me by saying im the "evil" in the family.only nyah knows why i turn to be "evil" and she never say that to me.but know shes dying and waiting for the time to come..and leave me alone in this world!:(( althought i still have my parents,family and friends but they are not same like her at all.ppl always think im the happiest person on earth coz i luv too party,shoping and etc.yeahh..coz i have nyah with me.every single thing that i did, i will tell her even i went to rave party,clubing,went out wif guyz.all my pain and happinest i share with nyah.but now..where can i go to cry when i need a shoulder to cry on???????tell me!!!my mama....hahahahaha..she never never understand me!frenss...maybe but certain things u cant tell ur frens,rite.eg i like tuuut....but none of my frens knows that.only nyah knows.when i like a guy,i will but myself distance becoz i dun want to be hurt.i cried to nyah that morning why must i like this guyz...nyah said just be yourself..n believe that one day u will get him or someone like him..but nyah dun like him coz she knows his attitude..but i feel so free after i told her.at least shes there for me...now..i just wanting for the time for her to leave forever..:((all my dreams with her are gone..no more crusin wif her, buying McD during Ramadhan(she knows im not fasting..heheh..she said i will be in hell)chit chat about my plan to go ibiza,buying her chocolate,buying her "jongkong emas" when i have enuff money..nyahh.. i miss you so much...nyahhh....please dont leave me alone..you told me i that we are not going to leave each other...nyahhhh!!!!!!!..:((:((:((
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