too tired today..wake up very early to send my mom to her office.my dad is taking annual leave.finally i managed to get my fave song..unique..this song really cool and so sasauu!!hehehe..i went to gym with chita.so tired now..humm..today chita gave me a set of song...inclusive 2 bonus song...hehehehe...now i'm listening to his song..by sh4nia twin(u still the 1) and p4ul y0ung(everytimeyougoaway)..and i gave him my song..put'em hi...

listening to st0n3bridges songs..i like this song..
never feel this way before..you are love..things alive..baby i dont care where you've been before..make the best of it..just little bit..
this uk group from the same record label of h3dkandi..their music so sexy...

i just arrive from perak.i spend my weekend in my hometown..i misss my house in perakk..anyway..just now..i rushing back to kl because i have a fine dinner with chita..i arrived at his place around 7ish,and its raining..he came to umbrella me.:D..cairr..hehehhee..yess..today he made me feel...hummm...he's so chomel tonite..my god..he's really charming.we had our dinner at r3g3nt kl..so nice and 'romantic'..hehehehee..i managed to control myself not smoking although i have 4 course meal.just don't want to spoil the nite..i know..chita will be very upset if i smoke infront of him.so lately..i seldom smoke in front chita.i know..he just my fren but he said to me he want me to have better life..thank you chita..for a wonderful nite!!

humm..i like this song so much..maybe some of my frens knows why..last nite i listened this song again with him..i think i might hurt him sooner or later.i talked to my frens adenn about this.i know..my frens love me so much.they don't want me to get hurt again.what i can say here..i wont..i'm ok.i just can't imagine what will happen to him when one day..i went out with other guys.when ever i think about this..i feel so sad.it will hurt him so much.or maybe he doesn't feel anything..hahahaa..anyway..i just want him to know that time won't wait for you.you have to run and chase the time..believe me..no matter what happen between me and him..he will always be my chita..and i will stand up for you.

With hand on heart
You right from the start
You Taught me to take my part
No cross to bear
No reason to care
My life was all up in air
Four to the floor I was sure, never seeing clear
I could have it all, whenever you are nearI in hand
Did not understandThe plight of the common man

Four to the floor I was sure, never seeing clear
I could have it all, whenever you are near
Four to the floor I was sure, that she would be my girl

We'd rent a little world, we'd have a little girl
Four to the floor I was sure, never seeing clear
I could have it all, whenever you are near
Four to the floor I was sure, that she would be my girl
We'd rent a little world, we'd have a little girl
Four to the floor I was sure, never seeing clear
I could have it all, whenever you are near

hunmm..nothing much today.spend time with my family.my aunty with me this weekend..we had a very long conversation and discussion just now.she understand me more than my own mother..huhhhuhuhu.i told her all my problems...my major problem here is..missing nyah so much.i keep on comparing everyone with her..i know..no one can ever replace her in my heart..i just wish..she with me right now..humm..

fuhh..it's been a while for me not writting.humm..kinda busy..and tired..(PMS mood)i will summarise few majot things happen last week..
1.Ciggerettes prices INCREASE to RM6.50--major problems for me and others smokers.yeaaah..now i have to control my smoking habits..seriously...my mom agree with the gov decision..hhuhuhuhu..
2.my parents went holiday---hhahahaa..on saturday..my parents went to CH.apalagi..i asked all my close frens come to my house and lepaks with me..i really enjoyed it because i miss them so much.we did movie marathon..i love you guys so much.
3.do my hair cut and hilite--cool huuh!
4.dinner at SFSHMValley--i have kinda not too formal dinner with chita(duuh.. i always have dinner with him)but..that nite his so charming...humm..we were talking about b4li..we miss b4li so much...specially dinner at jimb4r4n.we miss the sunset in b4li..after dinner we watched movie..theGh0s7
5.joinning fitnEEss1st--i'm goin to gym soon.in the same time start planning goin to futsalll.humm...
6.h3d k4ndi--i leff this music so muchh

I miss you nyahh!!

a year ago..i lost my true love and my soul!my everything..my world turn dark and full with sorrow.no one ever can be as same as her.she's my everything..yet.i still remember when i runned to the isle of icu..hoping that she still keep her promises to me..when i walked into the room..i only can see white linen sheet cover her body..since that i'm all alone without her in this world.you promise me..that you wouldn't leave me...!!!i know now you are happy now..with you mum,dad and brothers.i wish i can follow you..i just don't want to be here alone..i miss you so muchh..so muchh..!!without you..my life is different...no matter where i go and i do...i believe you will always be there for me.i miss your voice..i miss your laugh,i miss your jokes and i miss your love.

There'll never be another you ..No one will share the worlds we knew...And now that loneliness has come to take your place...I close my eyes and see your face...

i suppose to do filming today,unfortunately raining.huuh..i watched 9.11 movies.shittt..from the documentary,it shows that b1nLaden family have a very close relationship with the president family.every year b1nLaden family invest almost 1.4billions dollars in u.S.i hate the mr president!!

today i'm still moody..i went out with chita..but suddenly i feel so offences.althought he treat me nicely like a princess,i feel so sad and bad.suddenly i remembered how my friends said to me last nite.i feel my life always treat me so unfair...cried!!i just don't understand..why.!!
i'm not loonely..but i just feel uncomfortable.when i look into chita's face..i feel so sad.why he treat me so nice...why him??whyyy?????is it a sin for me to go out with him..is it a sin for taking care of him??why him?why mee??why i have to face all this?

whatever said about him..i just want to ignore.most important things here..i'm sincere with him.i never told anyone that no other guys ever treat and respect me as much as he did for me.i just want people to respect me..because what had happen to me last time..really really hurts.maybe other people might think that i'm a stupid by going out with him or said anything they want but they don't know him.actually i also don't know what's in his mind.but he always told me that ..please give him time..he said to me..he also want to marry with a girl that can take care of him and have a family like other people..but why must he say that to me..maybe he feel comfortable to talk to me..even he asked me..is there any girl can accept him later..if he really want to change.i said..YUPE!!but she must be very very strong!yeahh..she must be very strong!just now,while we walking around at timeSqu4re,he said to me..tgk taste i ok tak tgk perempuan!uikksss...hahahaa..i said i got migrain..actually that time i feel so sad because he doesn't know..how girls describe him once they know his orientation..(yeahh..last nite i heard how my friends describe them) i feel so badd mann!

always remember that no one perfect in this world.we are just human..please don't judge other people if you doesn't know who they are..if you want people to respect you..you must be sincere and do respect other people too.

i want this "gusti" costume for my wedding day..hehehee 

haa..today i watched PGL.this is not the first time i watch malay movie at cinema.1st malay movie i watched at cinema was semb1lu..hahahhaa..rempitsss gakk!about PGL..i think it is a good movie and it shows that our industry can produce good movie..some scene a bit slow.maybe the director wants to show everything in one time.the storyline,cinematography,custome design and background setting very nice and detail..accept the animation part.few scene it looks perfect but some doesn't look realistic.maybe i'm too particular.maybe other people doesn't realise but for someone who learn animation can see the motion not realistic enough.anyway..two thumbs up!!bravo PGL.

Q:"Apa komen dato y.h4sl4m mengenai PGL?"
A:"kerana PGL menggunakan budget yg tinggi tentu filem nie meletup.JGN bandingkan filem saya dgn PGL.saya buat filem utk hiburan seisi keluarga.apapun filem saya tetap jd b0xOffice!

i believe he will say that pharse or sound like that.hahahahaa..what happen if err4Fazira become puteriGunugLed4ng?and her husband Mr.Y become the sultan of Mel4cc4..and her ex-boyfriend become H4ngTu4h.hahahahaaa..!!i hope "Mr H4sl4m" open his eyes!people don't used blue gel lighthing for nite scene accept him!i can say i'm kinda emotional audience.almost everytime watching movies,i cry..heheheee..for PGL..i cried!!.

humm..suddenly i feel very sad.i called my best frens..gorgor.i talked to her..maybe some people don't understand me.arrgghhh..!!i don't want to think about that now..My Almighty..give me strength to face all this!I believe..only You knows..that i'm sincere.Please bless me!

today..i spent the whole day at home..since last two weeks,i'm too busy and hardly can spent time at home.maybe next week i'll bee too busy doing my filming.humm..just now,i chat with my cousin.i miss her so much.she told me that she just finished doing some shopping.buying new sexy black top for next week rave in medan..argghh!my cousin told me that,since she followed me to a rave last month,she addicted to go again and again..hahahhaa..cool huuh!she told me that her brother and sister angry with her because her bf is pakistani..i understand.she said,after she graduate,she wants to stay in london.maybe both of us staying there.dreaming..hehehe..since i was young,i got this instinct that she will be my 'sister'.now i have someone in my family go to rave with me.hahhaaa..but in know,she 'clean'!is ok..she told me,she loves the trance music.in the same time,she can check out gorgeous guys..hahahaa..arrghh..i just found out future king of brvnei getting married next week.halaa....i saw his photo on tV.i think his future wife is his cousin or they related.demmm..can i be your second wife?hehhehee

he's back!! 

La la la la la la, la la la la la la
My cherie amour, lovely as a summer day
My cherie amour, distant as the milky way
My cherie amour, pretty little one that i adore
You're the only one my heart beats for
How i wish that you were mine

In a cafe or sometimes on a crowded street
I've been near you, but you never noticed me
My cherie amour, won't you tell me how could you ignore
That behind that little smile i wore
How i wish that you were mine

La la la la la la, la la la la la la la
La la la la la la, la la la la la la
Maybe someday you'll see my face among the crowd

Maybe someday i'll share your little distant cloud
Oh cherie amour, pretty little one that i adore
You're the only girl my heart beats for
How i wish that you were mine

My cherie amour, lovely as a summer day
My cherie amour, distant as the milky way
My cherie amour, pretty little one that i adore
You're the only one my heart beats for
How i wish that you were mine

There's a song that's inside of my soulIt's the one that I've tried to write over, and over againI'm awake in the infinite coldBut you sing to me over, and over, and over againSo I lay my head back downAnd I lift my hands and prayTo be only yours I prayTo be only yoursI know now, you're my only hopeSing to me the song of the starsOf your galaxy dancing and laughing, and laughing againWhen it feels like my dreams are so farSing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back downAnd I lift my hands and prayTo be only yours I prayTo be only yoursI know now, you're my only hopeI give you my destinyI'm givin' you all of meI want your symphony, singing in all that I amAt the top of my lungs, I'm givin' it backSo I lay my head back downAnd I lift my hand and prayTo be only yours I prayTo be only yours I prayTo be only yoursI know now, you're my only hope

me and chita..my favourite photo.@bali 2004 

today..anw4r freed from all the charges.although he been sacked from the cabinet since sept 1998,but anw4r dilemms is not over yet.now he is a free man.yet..is it true..the politics conspiracy to sacked anw4r from malaysia cabinet.or is he a gay?anyway..i've follow this issues since 1998 and i believe that anw4r not guilty.last time,i was a law student, from all the evidence that the counsel show;the victim'aziz4n' credibility can be raised.anyway..now anw4r freed.former prime minister convinced he did the right things by sacking anw4r because he believes that anw4r involved in homosexsual activity..hahahha